What has been intended for evil, you turn it for our good and for your glory. Thank you Jesus. You are perfect in love, you have not forgotten us. Thank you Jesus. 🙌
Hello my friends
I never thought I had to actually do this, but the Lord is guiding me, and I am putting it out there: we have funds to cover for one more month.
My savings have been swallowed up by wrong choices, that were not my own. Well, maybe I should have transferred my inheritance money sooner. Probably. But then again, I have to trust, that the Lord knows my predicament, and that he has a plan even in this.
My source of income has been taken away a year ago. Since then, we have been living off the credit line. This is pretty much all dried up now.
Four years ago, God asked me, if I was going to give my fianaces into his care. I had no clue, what he really meant by this, but I said yes. And I meant it. Over the years he has taken the codependency of my original family away – not just financially, but also the need to be appreciated by them….I am surrendering my situation to his care all over again.
I find it extremely embarassing, to ask for money, donations, to tie us over, until the Lord reestablishes us, where we belong.
Never once in my wildest dreams did I imagine this to happen. But here I am…..I don’t have a plan, as to how this will all play out, but I trust, that he knows, and if he guides me now, to use gofundme, and let everyone see, that I have not been able to hold my own. Then so be it.
I confess, I made wrong choices and I was put in devastating situations through my original family. Yet, I allowed it to happen, so I am responsible for this situation. It all boils down to my family making money their save all, change and fix all. I repent and I apologize.
I know, that without Jesus, I am nothing and I cannot do anything. Every good gift comes from above. So, please, Lord, forgive me, for believing that money saves the day. Only you do.
You have, over the years, taught me, to fully trust you. During this last year, when my source of income was snatched away, in an effort, to save the family’s wealth, you showed me, that you are bigger.
When I was about to go out there, and look for a way, to salvage the situation, my visa expired, so I could not help my own. Then, when the visa situation was solved, I took care of my parents for 6 weeks, and then of my mother for 3 months, again, there was no way, to redeem my situation on my own.
I am doing what the Holy Spirit tells me to do – when he tells me to do it, even when I don’t understand it.
It has been tough, but you came to my rescue, provided for two mortgage payments, provided for ⅔ of my daughter’s tuition. Thank you Jesus.
Now, again at my wits end, you ask me to ask for financial help from my readers and friends – the truth is, I do not like to appear needy, helpless, no, I like to be strong and capable to do things on my own. But I need you now, my friends, I cannot do this on my own.
I know I need Jesus – I need him more every day of my life. For doing life alone is so hard. I count on him, to fill my energy reservoirs, to get through the days, and do what needs to be done…..whereas all of me just wants to slump and not move at all, especially now, after 5 months of caring for my parents – don’t get me wrong, I love them, and I was glad, I could be of help. But now I am drained – emotionally and physically – thankfully not spiritually.
I have to be the administrator of the affaires of the household, I have to be mother and father to my children, I have to provide for their needs, I have to make a home for them – I am tired and exhausted. There is not much more left in me….without Jesus, I would not even have been able to get to where I am now.
I go one day at a time, trusting he will give the mana for this day – and then the next day.
Now I am trusting, that he will provide again, maybe through you, through this link: gofundme.com/theheintzfamily – and I am trusting him, that he will guide my steps to where we belong.
Thank you, my friends, I love y’all – forever – whatever you can give is greatly appreciated. Please pray for us. We need your support in this.
God bless you today and always,